While he was cheating, I had just gotten my tumor removed, which now I have two more that I need to undergo surgery to get rid off. My mom was very ill, in the hospital, my dad was becomming an alcoholic I lived for him. I wanted to commit suicide so bad, but I refused, for him. I started to get depression, and knew what it was. My mother is way better now, as is my father. My sister is disgraced in me. She hates me. Nothing I do is good enough for her. She hates me. Always yelling and hurting my feelings. Good thing, right after I started cutting myself I met the most amazing guy in my life who I have been with and am still with for a year. I left John for Ben. Ben is amazing. His smile lights up the room. He makes me happy. He helps me get through everything that I face. But at the same time, half of the things I’m facing are because of him.
Heartbreak. He hit me. He used me. I sucked his dick a lot. I stopped for two weeks to see what would happen. I was dumped. He used me. We got back together. Now he really loves me. Never would use me. He really does love me. But he cheated. He got a handjob and fingered my friend. He forced her. She, and everyone else there, called me. She was bawling her eyes out.